Be Stoked

Wonderful things are happening.

Personally a not-so-landmark birthday just passed (unless you consider that I now have 5 years 'til 4-0). The Earth seems to be spinning with my little universe at the moment... or, following it's lead comes easier to me right now. I have so many things to be happy about and I truly am. I have so many people to love, and for a girl who has cried loneliness for most of these 35, I've finally realized that love is present even when those that are loved are not.

I became an aunt on March 5th, unofficially, but as close as I'll get. The birth of this baby boy to my dearest friend has touched my heart in a much different way than any other baby welcoming I have done. I know this has less to do with this baby, or even my friend, but with me. With this child my capacity for loving increased, maybe one full size.

My oldest friend started this whole marriage and child bearing adventure already many years ago, and frankly, I just couldn't relate... until maybe right now. This is not an "Earth Mother" cry for pregnancy and babies, let alone husbands... more an affirmation that I am growing up, and it feels good.

Getting close to the children of my friends, and to them, again, is important to me. Being nice to my parents is important to me. Being in touch with everyone I want in my life is important to me. Being calm and happy and kind is important to me. Loving myself as much as I love others is important to me. Not taking this life for granted is the most important thing ever, and I just discovered it.